Thursday, February 26, 2015

Missing you (Memory Poem)

Do you know how it feels to miss you?
It's like being in the world by yourself
I miss you so much that it hurts
I've been waiting for you to come back again
And you really came back after all this times
My feelings for you are indescribable, you know
You're like a drug that I'm addicted to
And no rehab can fix it.

Don't the stars in the sky light up? 

Like you need to light up my life
I can't breathe without you
Every time I see you, you give me butterflies in my stomach
When it comes to you, 
I would give everything to you, anything!!
You're just amazing and so special
You're like a drug that I'm addicted to
And no rehab can fix it.

Remember that time when we would go places together? 

Man, we use to act crazy in public and people would just stared at us.
Washington, New York,California, Niagara Falls, & Virgina, 
The places we went together when we were kids, remember?

My head would spin and spin like a Echanted Teacup from a Six Flag ride

I miss you so much that when I see you,
I don't know what to say or do
I never feel as empty as when you leave 
It's like being in a dark room, all alone 
Sometimes I would look up to the sky at night
And watch the bright moon shinning down,
I would hear your voice talking to me
You're always in my head, you're like music to my ears

I just miss you so much......

Im not perfect...

I had to went outside just for a little air
I feel like in inside in a box, trap
About to snap and would destroy everything that would get in my way
My parent can't help me so does my brothers
I keep on saying to myself "It all your fault!! It's all your fault!! Why did you do that"
Okay yes i did something that i regret but what you going to do about?
You can't go back in time and fix it
If i could i would changed everything

I'm not a Barbie who is pretty
Because being pretty sucks and it hurts
I'm not perfect 
I make mistake, yes a lot
I'm weak but I can be strong as a lion 
I would fall and
I would rise 
I would cry like a little baby and 
I would laugh when i don't want to
I would never tell anyone what wrong with me 
Because it not important
No one cares

I would push away the people i needed the most
I would decline hugs when i want them the most
I would say things i didn't mean and would say sorry afterward 
I'm not perfect
I'm not that girl you always wanted,
That girl who has the perfect body and that beauty face  
There's one thing they don't have, they don't have a big heart like me,
That would love you and hold you down in bad time and in good time no matter what
But I'm still not perfect?

That Day (Persona Poem)

Shot fire, shot fire 
Repeat shot fire, man down man down
Traps are every where, one more step BOOM!!! 
This all reply back to Afghanistan..
The noise of the gun, car flaming like hell and prayers

I blink once then twice
Now I'm back home 
My head so badly, like a hippo had stomp on me
I look over my shoulders and i see my sister and brothers 
Car are flipping around like a pancake would
Rafael told my Little angle to come down
"Shush little angle. Don't be afraid. Everything is going to be okay"

I thought to myself, I don't want to die. 
Not yet, not now. 
I didn't know what to do but we have to get away from this disaster
I feel like I had failed my family.
I was too ashamed of myself
My sister didn't think so and so those my family
They told me it wasn't my fault that all this happened 
But it was still my fault though.....

Wednesday, February 25, 2015

life.....(Something I Wrote)

I first held my sister on May 25 
Her eye's was big as the moon
She was still crying at the moment 
I told to her that i was going to be the best bother you ever had,
Even though she got two older brother too, I'm still the best
It crazy because I came home just in time to see my little angle to be born
I call her my little angle because God gave my family something special from Heaven
My other brothers they couldn't make it because they was on duty 

Day by day, I could see her grow little by little
She started as a seed to a beautiful flower
I know that my mom  was tired after giving birth 
So I took care of my little angle
Look like I'm the parent, weird right?
Her first word was Mikey in a sweet voice
Sweeter then a Lipton Tea, 
Sweeter then a Chocolate Cake
"Mikey" with a smile and a little giggle

I wasn't going to let anyone hurt her or touch her
She so precious and delicate 
When i was about to leave for Afghanistan, she didn't want to let go of my leg
She was only two year old when i left her
They said mans never show their tears to no one
Well I did, I cry because I don't want to leave her
I was scared that I'm not going to be able to see her again
Cuz I don't know if I'm coming back home alive or not..........

Tuesday, February 24, 2015

Black (Color Poem)

Black is like an expression
I look into the water to see my reflection but i don't see it
All i see is black
Black is what we wear to a funeral
Tears would drop, falling fast like a waterfall 
Nobody is talking because talking just turn into yelling
Blaming on each other like it their fault that all this happen
like as if we could had save them
The silence of the room feels so cold, so lonely
Black is like a black hole 
Once you in, you can't get out of it
Black is the thought and feelings we experience 

Black is a devil
They pull you into their hands
Controlling you
But they say that death can be cheated but they're wrong though
My heat is beating up and also heating up
The smell of a black rose, it scent weaken from day after day
It feels as if you was sleeping then all the sudden you feel as if you're falling from the sky, BAM!
Scared from a falling frizzy faded dream
Six month past, i don't know myself anymore
My heart use to be pure red but now it's pure black

But wait 
There a light shinning so little now
You can see it but you can't save it
It all too late because my shinning little light had been devoured by the evil black